It's mixed sadism and masochism, in that I write what I like to read, and I like to read things that make me actually lose track of the fact that I'm 95% certain to get a happy(ish) ending. I want to really be WITH someone, mentally, when they're freaking out because someone is hurt/might die/etc, and then with them again when the relief hits because they didn't. It's some kind of crazy psychological narcotic for me. Which is why I don't enjoy actual character death at all, regardless of the angst it brings, because it feels like a rush that falls flat halfway through.
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Date: 2009-06-08 06:22 pm (UTC)Sorry, end ramble heh.